Today was an incredibly empowering day, and I want  to remember this feeling, so that I may pull on it , on those days when I'm not feeling so empowered, and confident and sure that I do have what it takes to fullfill my dreams, wishes, desires and destinies.

I thought today would be a long, tiring day, but it was the complete opposite.

Today, we were given a presentation by a woman from Philadelphia in relation to her magazine that she is promoting a bit, and getting us involved in. It was a partnership that one of my professors had initiated, and ended up getting alot of people on campus involved in.

Anyhow, now of course that I'm writing this, I am like tired of typing, but I want to make a long story short.

Essentially the point of today, was that I spoke my mind, and also allowed my positive thoughts to flow freely.  I found her presentations to be very inspiring and motivational, and I was glad I had the oppurtunity to meet with her and see her.  It's proof positive that when the day starts, sometimes you don't know how it will end up for you.

In addition to these events, I was getting inducted into Sigma Delta Pi, a national collegiate spanish honor society.  The ceremony was great, and it really made me feel proud of myself for all the hard work i've done. It's been a while since I truly felt that way, and i was glad that I got recognition for something.

at the meeting, i ended up talking with my advisor for the group various times, and tried sharing my ideas and feeligns on how the group is going, something that I don't normally find myself doing-just speaking my mind, and being in control of my own destiny through my words and thoughts. Sometimes I tend to let other people go on, or i just follow. but today, I felt like a leader.

however, I felt the sense, that my verbalizing my desires, they were being realized, and validated by the fact that the advisor frequently beat me to the punch :)

Anyhow, than me and a few other people stayed till almost everyone was gone, and got invited out to dinner with our professors, we of course took them up on the offer, and it was a great experiance!  It's so refreshing to remember that your professors are people too lol,

wel,l we had alot of conversations about goals, life changes and it was just really a conversation that stimulated me. I also told the speaker how grateful i was to learn about her nd her endeavours

so if i didn't alraedy feel so confident

i get home and this guy hsa completely parked two people in, to the point that he is ON the bumpers of the cars.....so i trie d to mention something to him nicely mbut he didn't reall care and tried to deflect the situation, i let it go, at least from his perspective, cause he's definitely an idiot. but i went and knocked on the door of the woman'sh ouse who's car it was. I was amazed that i was being this bold and ACTED, and the lady was actually really appreciative, and i formed a relationship. you truly never know what YOU CAN DO, until you do it.

Well, I just got back yesterday from a long trip in arkansas to visit my friend jen!  I went with my mutual friends jess and amanda.  It was so much freaking fun!  It was just so nice to spend the weekend with girls that you get along with so well.  I feel like I haven't had good friends like this since high school.  It's always been hard for me to have people I consider real friends.   I think it's been great for me though.  To have friends that i can completely be myself around.   and be myself i have been.  I'm crazy :)   I love those girls. I hope even when life changes we find away to reunite every once in a while.

I've totally reached a point in my ....i dunno. mental development? life? what have you, where i am completely comfortable with myself, and everyng I am, have been, and...well, for the most part who i will be.  I think who I will be gets better with everyday.  I am constantly wishing for more, and I'm starting to believe i can get whatever I want. I think that's the big difference.  Although I think there are some things, that I am blocked from getting.

I'm watching Poison Ivy on LMN right now.  I like when i watch movies that I wouldn't necessarily find myself watching....

i also love that i'm in a position right now, where i'm doing things, i think i normally wouldn't find myself doing........

what i'm doing right now is so out of character...but i just can't seem to stop.  I don't want to.   I want to feel.  I want to feel everything in life right now!  I'm not numb for the first time in a very long time.

I just hope I'm not being played with.  i've been there too many times that I just don't want to go there again.  i prefer honesty over the games that get me more involved...because sometimes  i think that's going to happen with me regardless.

the next time might be the last time....i don't know how long it can go on, without me getting totally and utterly loca :)  Part of me feels like I need to protect myself, and the other part of me just wants to jump off a cliff! take a risk!

School is starting again soon.  I can wait. lol.  actually. I can't wait. I can't wait until I start reading in spanish again more often.

time for me to o to work...........................